Emotional Roller Coaster

Well, that is the only way I know how to describe the last few days! On Thursday, I had my first doctor's appointment and we were so excited. As we waited in the lobby, I could not wait to see the first picture of our little sweet pea. We went in to have the ultra sound, and as I was looking at the screen, all I saw was a black spot. It took a few minutes for the technician to say anything and I was dying! Finally, she said that she saw a sac and a yolk sac, but she did not see a baby or a heartbeat. My heart sank. I asked her, "What does that mean??" She said that maybe I had our conception date wrong. I immediately told her that it was not possible. I had an IUI, so I could tell her the hour and minute. She just said that we would need to talk to the doctor.

Extremely frustrated and completely scared, we waited in the doctor's office. He came in and told me that according to my ultra sound, my gestational age is 5weeks and 3 days. The tears came and I was a blubbering mess. The doctor said that he was cautiously optimistic and that this was not bad news. He told me that I am still pregnant, just not growing as quickly as I should. It very well could have something to do with the fertility medications I was on to force ovulation. He asked us to schedule another appointment for next week, so we will be back on Wednesday.

As we walked to the parking lot, I was an emotional wreck. I cried the whole way home. I just didn't know what to do. But, the more people I talk to, the more I realize that this isn't as uncommon as I thought. I talked to a good friend of mine whose sister-in-law is a nurse. She assured me that this is nothing to worry about and that it will be just fine. So, as of now, I feel much better. We will see what Wednesday brings. Hopefully, we will see our Sweet Pea! Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers!!